OK … It was NOT pretty!
I’ll admit that – even if I was the only one present to witness the altercation!
In truth … my GUIDE started the whole thing with her latest comments on MY latest DMP* revision! (LOL – not really her fault – that’s just my Old Blueprint* trying to get her 2-cents-worth into this blog) I thought I was RIGHT! I was INDIGNANT. I was making mad notes and highlighting things and scribbling out other things over: “omit this” and “I can’t find that” and “change this” and “what are you giving up?” etc etc etc … until —
I just stopped with pen in hand and started laughing … LAUGHING! “Whoa! Just LISTEN to yourself! You are SO making excuses, and rationalizing and stalling and avoiding the real work, the deep work, the honesty that will speak to your soul – all based on your past experiences — and — just how far have THOSE really gotten you anyhow?”
Oh – my – gosh!     OBPme was really stuck in her ways and resistant to any insinuation that there was more to be discovered that wasn’t already eloquently put into those 400 words*. NBPme decided to have none of that baloney and shut her off. (I don’t know which me it was who was observing all of this, but SHE was having a FABULOUS time!)
The line from this week’s Master Key introduction just BLEW UP in my face! “Eliminate, therefore, any possible tendency to complain of conditions as they have been, or as they are, because it rests with you to change them and make them what you would like them to be.”
OUCH.
I made the changes. I rewrote some areas. Omitted some things. Breathed. Sighed. And sent off the next revision to my guide! And, of course, as soon as I hit “send” – MORE changes and ideas and insights popped up. So … I’m still at the drawing board! And, since I’m drawing the rest of my LIFE – I think I’ll hang out here for as long as it takes!
I’ll keep you posted!
Thanks for visiting. More next week. I promise.
*Some definitions*
DMP = Definite Major Purpose – my dharma/my bliss – the reason I am on the planet
Old Blueprint (OBPme) and New Blueprint (NBPme) = Our blueprints are our subconscious maps that operate everything we do. They are our thoughts, wrapped in feelings equaling our beliefs! If life hasn’t given us that bowl-of-cherries, perhaps our blueprint needs revision. I know MINE does.
400 words = how long our DMP may be! Because, according to Haanel, “we must see that the words out of which this temple [my life] will eventually be created are exact, that they are put together carefully, because accuracy in building words and sentences is the highest form of architecture in civilization and is a passport to success.”
Nice picture Deb. I love it. You did do this one, didn’t you. Or was it some other famous artist? Let the world know of your talent. I also know the struggles you mentioned. Thank you for putting them to words, but I do enjoy the picture. Thank you for that.
Hey Bill –
The picture was just a “lucky” find on Google Images! LOL – Fits the theme pretty well, though, huh!
Thanks for the comment.
Deb, you are AMAZING!!!! Smacking down your OBP and short circuiting all those peptides that feed it! I love it!!!! Thank you for your generous sharing of what many folks go through in this process. Love being with you on this journey. God bless you!
I agree with you Deb. Creating my DMP has been challenging and I want to revise it more even after I have hit send. Keep up your hard work and it will pay off in the end!
Well Done…you are not the only one struggling! Thanks for sharing! Honestly!
Deb, you aren’t the only one struggling with this. I have a friend who is extremely frustrated but I believe, she, like you, will continue to push through and have a fabulous new life waitng for you at the end of this journey.
Love your total honesty and reality Deb! I was feeling crappy for a poor result day mid week, sat down to do some of this work, and fought my OBPme the whole way. Isn’t it amazing that these habits that we are forcing on ourselves (sit, GS aloud at end of long days!) demand the change in our subby and mood! Keep doing the work! Keep changing those habits.